Sitting around waiting for mom to come home. Need to start moving the boxes around the appartment so I can clean out my room.
It's happening now. And it's weird, because it'll happen in a few hours and then it'll be all diffrent.
I am not in a good frame of mind though. Fucking up as badly as I did with saving Alex's hard drive... I can't stop berating myself. That's really, really bad.
And, after our little get toghether yesterday, and everyone went home just a little bit after twelve. I felt so alone. I couldn't stop crying. And especially when it comes to me and Alex. Being at her place for two days working on stuff... but not being able to relax, or be intimate. I'm am really cracking at the edges. And not seeing eachother for two months at a time.
I am also not sleeping enough. I'm still up at four in the morning. That's bad.
But this change in where I live can bring alot of good if I can catch it. I know that. And I so sorely wish that I can get people to come visit me, as for the first time in five years, I'll have a say in who comes and goes in my appartment.
So, to help myself catch the good stuff. What do I want?
I want to exercise more again. And my new little idea with 20-30 minute aerobic passes 3-4 times a week seems to work. And using a stepcounter make sure I get 10000 steps a day. That should get me somewhere, right?
Record my music. I'll have six weeks of time before work and school starts. I have more then three albums worth of material, and two major side projects, and much more. And it is my dream. I have no good excuses not to do it.
Finish school. I'm working on it. And the steps I've taken with myself has worked. Continue.
More roleplaying. It's great fun. I have so many ideas. We havn't played in six months.
Meet my friends more. Socialise. And Not make Alex my sole encounter with other people on a personal level. (oh, there was a great pun there, but noone will notice)
But also, I need to get to spend more time with Alex. If this is to be a relationship. We need to see eachother.
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Looks like you have some nice plans for 2008, mr demian! i hope you manage to get them done without getting so stressed/tired (as you usually do, mr busy-man :P)!
Moving always feels weird, especially if you have lived in your old place long enough. there are still times when i wake up wondering where i am, yet i've been here for a year. freaky.. i hope your new place is better and that you wont have too much trouble adapting (and that you receive a lil postcard sometime soon.. :))
cheer up and make 2008 a great year for yourself and for people around you!
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