Cold

Everything is cold and I'm feeling numb.

I'm fighting with a small ball of panic. I don't know what to do. I'm desperatly trying to relax. But I keep coughing. And being anxious.

Maybe I could go to TKD today. But the cough is still a bit to bad. Next week? At least the sinew in my leg seems fine.

Maybe I could go for a walk, that relives stress. Listen to a Pratchett book. But it's so cold. On the other hand, I need to go shopping for granddad.

I miss Alex. Anexiety, technical difficulties and just all bloody stress from school has sunk or plans to see eachother for months. I need her.

Every little small thing that needs doing feels huge, gigantic. I hate that feeling. As it's all small and generally easy. But I get anexiety at home. And I get it from the bloody exams that I need to pass. And... weather I've passed the one I did a month ago, or not, will really, really affect me. To think that I'll have to re-do it. Again. I... can't accept that. Not when I worked so bloody hard on it.